Welcome to my inner world!!!

Today from Boon lay Mrt all the way till Serangoon Mrt, tonnes of random thoughts flew thru my mind. Studies, taekwondo, friends, life............

well firstly for studies...
People A: Wah!!! Distinction Boy leh!!!
People B: U got so many distinctions, no need to study one la.
People C: Ur distinctions more than A lehs, so PRO!!!
etc etc etc...lazy to type further...

hahahahahaha whenever i hear these, i just passed off with a smile. I sometimes really feel like explaining: I AM NOT SMART...I AM NOT CLEVER... I am just alittle more hardworking and just want to put more effort in whatever i do. So clever for wad? get so many distinctions for what? People jus only know me as a smart boy, distinction boy and wad else? Is it what Devester is all about?

OKAY!!! what i got back today will shut the people up.. I failed one of my quiz and i just passed by 1.5 in another quiz. so can shut up already?

i guess my studies are dropping, even when i study as hard as b4 or sometimes even harder. I dunno how will I fare for this semester but i really hope i can pull thru. i really hope so. Of course i will not put my last 5 semesters to waste! FINE! enough about studies already.

well secondly for taekwondo...
what can i say abt it...hmm i only can say i am deproving. but theres one thing i am confident at this moment: give me anyone to spar now, i will guarantee that person's head on the floor immediately.
Too much to be said, but it's best to left them unsaid.

well thirdly for what happened at coffee bean today...
me and her were sitting at a table. i was eating my mudpie while i was talking with her abt an Indian mother and her baby girl beside us. we saw they had 3 slices of cake and we were commenting in chinese on how they going to finish. anything offensive?
then that Indian mother told me: i know u are toking about me because i understand alittle chinese. just mind your own business.
we looked away. then her husband came, then she told her husband about us over and over again:they should just mind their own business, they should just mind their own business.
guess what is on Devester's mind at that point of time? I feel like telling straight into her face: HOW YOU KNOW WE ARE TALKING ABOUT YOU IF WE DINT POINT ANY FINGERS/GESTURES AT YOU? does that mean you are eavesdropping us? then would you mind ur own F**k*** business instead? dont we have our freedom of speech? and furthermore, we dint comment anything offensive abt you or whatsoever.
If i can, i will jus give a tight slap to her.
Enough of my anger for this person, just wasting my energy typing..

well fourthly for my own interpersonal life and watever u call it...
am i quiet?
am i shy?
or am i just an introvert?

which of these 3 categories do i fall into? okies...if u say i am quiet, hmm unless u are my very very close friend, u should knw that i am not a very quiet person. if u say i am shy, yes i admit i am shy in front of strangers or a big groups of friends. if you say i am an introvert, i guess i am most probably one.
hmm some examples when i kept quiet: 1) when a friend toking to me 2) during sptkdc meetings 3) in front of big groups of friends
hm for myself, i shall explain why i am quiet for the above situations. when a friend toking to me abt a topic, alot of thoughts keep flying in my mind. i dunno which one should i use to reply abt that topic. the correct one only came many many hours later when the topic is gone. I DUNNO WHY also. for sptkdc meetings, its hard for me to explain why i am quiet. its not because i dun want to contribute. its because i dun like to voice out in front of a big group of people. i know it's bad but...
in front of a big group of friends, i will normally just sit at a corner listening to them hehehaha. i will definitely not that sort who will be under the limelight for long or at all coz its kinda uncomfortable to me. I hate the feeling when everyone is looking at me while i am toking. it's just very scary. my mind will just go totally blank. well u can say i have no confidence or not sociable or dao or wadever...but i really wish i can participate...i really wish so =(

well fifthly for sptkdc...
AM I FIT TO BE SPTKDC's Vice president?
I would say yes only because those who voted and nominated for me placed all their trust on me.
OR else I would say i am completely not fit to be SPTKDC's vice president.
for the job scope:
did i do my job as a vice president when the President is not around? NO.
did i know all the details and how the sptkdc is running? NO.
did i know what the president is doing for the sptkdc? NO.
did i ever hold proper meetings for the committee? NO.
did i ever contribute to the club? NO.
okies. I dun mind i am not being recognised by anyone as a SPTKDC's vice president.
but...teaching 2007's white belt batch and bring them up for grading. is this considered not contributing to club?
teaching patterns to those going for grading. is this considered not contributing to club?
helping the club to win medals instead for my secondary school. is this considered not contributing to club?
well..whats my stand in SPTKDC???? i dont know...
OKAY THEN.. IF YOU STILL FIND THAT I AM NOT CONTRIBUTING TO THE CLUB ENOUGH, then this year's IVP i go get gold for u all. Happy? if i didnt get anything for this IVP, well just take it that my contributions to SPTKDC is ZERO from 2005 till 2007.

phew..i so tired after writing this post...
blog is good coz it wont comment or rebut you.
blog is bad coz it wont reply you.

but i am feeling better now coz i have said what i wanted to say from my heart.

sorry if i offended anyone in this post.

OFF TO BATTLE FOR EXAMS ---->