wee~ i just got my last semester's results.

and I can graduate liao.. wahahahahahahah

so happy!!!

when i open SAS today, it reads my last sem's results. then followed by the following:

Diploma Awarded.
NAPFA = Silver
CCA = A+

I like the first line the most. Bye bye SP!

now besides helping out my teacher to repeat my FYP, I am waiting for the graduation ceremony in May. =DD

AHHHHHHHHHHH!!!

I better start losing weight now if not i will be disqualified from NTU OPEN liao.

Weight after 1st weigh-in = 79 kg

Weight after 2nd weigh-in (after jogging, "small business") = 77.6 kg

and i have to be below 78 kg to be considered in my weight category. haha

I die le. I have been suppering almost everyday after weigh-in. Oh man!! i from today onwards must start to go on diet le... YUPS!!! Devester JIAYOU!!!

sobs sobs sobs...i miss my 75 kg...that was 9 months ago de weight. People say when you enter a relationship, your weight bound to increase coz u wont tend to watch ur weight often le. haha i guess this is true for me. My ideal weight is 72 kg. HAHA i still got long way to go...

Anyway today damn funny la...went with junxian to have lunch at kovan hawker centre after ka-jiao-ing mdm keli at work. Wah! then we got a sudden craving for laksa when we passed by a shop selling very nice laksa. OK!! for the sake of fighting in NTU OPEN, we shall not have laksa, so instead we had something else. But as we were looking for seats, we saw more and more bowls of laksa appearing on most of the tables. Then we sian diao. OK NVM!!! we still can REN. After that, as we were eating, a man passed by and placed a bowl of laksa on our table coz he want to buy drink at a nearby drink stall. THEN WE TOTALLY SIAN DIAO LAH!!! the scent was like diffusing into our nose. I told junxian: i feel like eating his laksa!!! after that he said: scaly he say he want to sit our table and eat.

WAH LAU if he do that ah...i dont think i can resist the temptation liao. LOL

haha guess what? yesterday me and Mdm Keli made a stupid but meaningful promise, which is to exchange our medals if we both got our gold. Wah! and furthermore...it's my first time getting a Female Black Fin Gold Medal lehs!! So cool...is other guys cannot get one. LOL

Now I got a new reason for fighting le: get Mdm's Gold medal!!!

and we are hooking our pinkies this friday to honour our promise.

to MDM KELI: you better come back with a gold medal hor!! whether me or others coach you...

*claps claps claps

Congrats! You are fast...just too fast...Tat's interesting. Can't imagine u can get it done with this fast and a new one arise. =)

I really 'admire' you...

The only cure to missing someone is to see that person.

However, if you can't see that person, it will just become a memory.

Memories cannot be thrown away. They will remain there forever.

Phew! I just completed my online application for the choice of courses for both NUS and NTU.

well..although there are lots of both good and bad memories for me in SPTKDC, I have decided to leave SPTKD after IVP for a period of time. Of course if they need my help, I don't mind coming back to help.

However, for the time-being, besides work, I will go back Maris Stella Taekwondo Club to help out after my IVP. That's where i learn my basics i.e. turning kicks. It's time for me to repay them after my 2 years of disappearance.

Sorry SPTKDC but i have to leave. I will definitely miss what was being left behind. Especially... haha well i shall not mention...people say i should forget the past and move on. But I will not forget the times I have in SPTKDC.

Let me say a be-earlied good bye first.

BYE GUYS. I will return when the time is right.

Yups! I ADMIT IT! Isn't that the answer that you want to get?

Since you don't believe me, what's the point of me telling the truth?

No matter how much i tried to explain, it is useless and as you already said:"whatever i said has no meaning at all"

Furthermore, how does it feel when you have only a limited time to talk to her while she is sms-ing someone at the same time? DAMN IT la!!!

ANYWAY it doesnt matter anymore. That's our last talk and you blew it.

I shall put an end to everything...

It will be a new beginning for me...






sorry ring but i can't find any reason to keep you anymore.

No message.

No call.

No contact.

Everything seems to end already.

Today at tkd training, i was quite happy to see her from afar. just feel glad that she got come. i really feel so. it is like giving me the strength to train. However, i realised this strength has faded. When i sparred with San Jun, i actually fought for her. I use all my feelings and the strength from her to fight. But i realised that i was too tired to carry on. The feeling is like totally different from the past. My legs have no more strength. I felt the strength is not coming from her anymore. Only then i decided to stop the match. After which, i broke down. I really felt helpless then. The usual her will come by but theres no one there anymore.
After i recovered, i realised that i have to depend on myself already. she is no longer there for me. This will be the last match that i fought for her.

Today is 15-2-2008. I, Devester Choo Yun Ming, although it is painful to say, have decided to give up all feelings related to her. I am not going to shed any more tears after today. I am just too tired. Anyway she has a new friend already and i believe only him can cheer her up now. If he doesn't, I will KO him!

My future routes:

- fight my last competition (NTU open). This fight will be solely for myself. Not SPTKD, not her and not anyone else.

- After my competition, i decided to take a break from taekwondo. Well, my tobok will be kept nicely in my store. Regarding when will i return, haha i don't know.

- Concentrate on my work at Marina Mandarin Hotel once it is confirmed.

- Apply for university.

- Await for NS.

well i guess that's all i have to say. hmm i cant think of anything else.

To Ke Huiqi: I know I have hurt you badly and made you lost your trust in me. Anyway I am happy being your bf for the past 8 months. Really! I will miss taking care of you, crapping with you, and laughing with you. Anyway you have found your new friend le, so hope you can stay happy. Just some last reminders for you: 1) dont peel your lips 2) drink lots of water (dont be lazy to bring water bottle) 3) Dont peel your nails anymore 4) Take care during training (u know your limitations) 5) sleep as much as possible before school starts 6) for every semester, study hard!! i am sure u can enter uni de. Prove it to yourself 7) SMILE MORE!
Take care Huiqi.

Happy Valentine's Day to Everyone. I hope all couples in the world will enjoy themselves on this day.



To her: Happy Valentine's Day to you. I hope u will be happy today. Anyway i have made a gift for you but i dont think i am able to pass it to you. So i guess i will just post up in this blog entry. Although i dont know whether you will see it anot, i do believe in miracles. It may be simple but it really means alot. I hope you will like it. =)

Huiqi, enjoy your day.

Everytime i received a message or a call, I am always looking out for "Huiqi Sp Tkd" to be on my screen. But...it doesnt appear.

Today all the places i went reminds me of the memories we had. My eyes will turn watery whenever I walked past a place that seemed so familiar. I will pause by that place for a second before moving on. I really want to go by those places again with her and only her.

Today ate at Thai Express for lunch, it reminds me of us sharing green and yellow curry together. When i reached the mrt station, i will tend to look at the Boon Lay train. But it now seems so far away from me.

p.s i miss her. and i really do. you can call me stubborn or what. but she still holds a place in my heart.

For the past few days and including today, i really dread going to sleep because i am scared that i wont be able to see her sms the moment i on my hp when i wake up. Furthermore, i dont dare to delete my inbox coz i scared that the sms will be her last sms le.

Her ring has also been on my finger for the past few days. Although it cant subsitute her in any other ways, i can still feel her presence beside me. Even though she is not physically around, i can still sense it...be it cheering me up, crapping with me, make me laugh...

No matter what, i will still wear that ring for life.

My blog shall revive again. As i am an introvert, a blog is best to express how i feel.

Anyway today went out with my brothers (ben and joanna) to watch movie: Kungfu dunk. It's kind of a stupid show which shows ppl playing bball with computer effects and kungfu. The only reason ppl watch is coz of Jay Chou.

After that went training. When I first stepped into the training ground, i was looking around anxiously for her. At first, i saw her, but it was someone else. My mood was dampened immediately. Seeing her from afar is the only thing i can hope now but she is not there today. Then continued with usual training. I was looking around, hoping to see her kicking the targets. After which, it was break-time.

Her: wo yao he sui, pei wo qu mai ke yi ma?
Him: ke yi ah, ni yao he se mo sui ne?
Her: 100 plus.
Him: orh okies.

But it was just an illusion for me at that point of time.
As earlier on, i accidentally kicked Yong Hui's elbow, my left incept was injured. Then it was made worse when i sparred with San Jun. I can barely walk. At that moment, i felt so helpless. Where are you?

After that, just went home. On the way home, i dunno why i ended up driving towards Boon Lay. what's wrong with me?


p.s i miss you loads

Reason to blog: HER

Reason to not blog: HER

This blog shall be declared dead as of today.


*dont ask me what happened.

to all, esp qh: u all can tag for all u want ba. i am too tired to care le...

I SWEAR THAT I WILL DEFINITELY NOT LET HISTORY REPEAT ITSELF AGAIN.

iloveherstill...

On 1/02/08, Devester Choo Yun Ming from DBT/3A/22 is hereby declared graudated unofficially from Singapore Polytechnic. (sound so formal but who cares?! =P)

Offical one will be after I get my results and my diploma cert. LOL hopefully no forward modules =S

Anyway before I leave SP, I shall fulfil my last contribution for this school, or rather SPTKDC. I shall win a medal in IVP for SPTKDC!!!


Today, Devester had also taken a walk at Taman Jurong after his exams. He is enlightened after much thoughts. He finally realised that missing actually makes the heart fonder. This is really true!!! =)